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Dreams during 2004 & 2005.
  MARCH 2004 LUCID
18 Going through flat window to outside world: Seems it was the real world but was sunny and upon reflection wasn't land 0. Floated into the sunshine as an attempt to gain energy, hoping prana would flow in, I was feeling as if low in energy. (it can seem that moving about in a dream takes energy, I become tired etc..) 8
19 A roadway, high fly-over, scared of the height. I realised a dream so decided to jump off.  (I get up high, the fear seems to remind me I am dreaming, realise nothing to fear, I jump and then the  lucid dream starts.) 7
20 Went through a high building, flying in air, supported by a strong mans body, felt secure. Moved my arms and legs knowingly as a form of exercise to practice body dream movement, made progress consciously moved parts hadn't done before. I could hear music, classical music - noticed ears were hearing all the detail of the classical music. From real world could hear briefly someone playing a electronic keyboard (Hedy Brown had mentioned, think this was it). Land I: is the place I think I am sleeping, not necessarily the real world so to speak. 9
20 I asked to speak to someone to get understanding, took me to a corridor with 4 doors, I tapped on one door - no reply, then a second, then a third when I heard a "come in" not sure from which door it actually came from but I went into number 3 and sat down at a table. An African women, early 30s, came in, to my surprise spoke to me (generally people I meet in lucid dreams don't seem to see or communicate with me). I was finding talking difficult (usually in lucid dreaming I find talking difficult) and I felt the she was a little frustrated that I was inexperienced. I hadn't much clue of what I was doing, a complete beginner as it were. But she did help by asking questions and I became better at talking although still husky sounding. When talking I felt I could be speaking in the real world, i.e. sleep talking. 10
21 Large house with servants, I had found a key ring with 3 metal bits on, at first thought 3 keys, but later realised, one door key, one small key and a small pair of scissors. Told a couple of others/children and we were looking for secret doorways. We were servants watching a banquet taking place, those serving would bring us surplus food, one brought a plate of sweet cakes said children servants should have priority. While stood watching one of us found a hidden door/keyhole. Didn't get time to explore- awoke to real world - to toilet. Coming back I speculated where the door/room could be, was it a secret passage, it was an entrance via a wardrobe, and the small key a key to that wardrobe. D
22 I was holding, caring for a small giraffe, it had a sticker on it which I cut off damaging the giraffe skin which I then washed causing it to shrink. D
22 Floating about, noticed my feet, crunched them up released, tensing releasing as a astral body exercise also with my legs and hands, practiced with my voice making the sound o o o o o  (as in hot). Floated backwards through wall of cathedral, couldn't see much so went out and then floated / pushed in front ways, this time could see much better, coloured lights shining through stained class windows, stained glass of Disney characters. There was a book in a glass case titled, "Mystic ........." 10+
23 I was in America, fairly desolate place in an industrial unit looking out to desert like scrubland. Far end of units only in use. But then a new retailer came to town, furniture and started stocking up some of the units into a showroom. Made a make shift stage, music with some kind of electric organ. D
23 On holiday in Greece, at hotel with lockers in the restaurant/foyer area, all my valuables had to be put in there. There were gay pubs and clubs but I only went into one. Got arrested and charged for something but I thought I was completely innocent. At one time the lockers appeared to have been moved to make way for dining places, had to wait to get to my things. Did lose my money in them at one point. D
23 Went through a shopping centre, but made a turning and this end seemed not to be used much, empty derelict feeling about it. Left and found myself behind it in an unfamiliar part of the Island, rough area looking felt not particularly safe. See kids playing, saw coast line with sun setting, but not familiar coast line, decided to rise up because I knew then I would recognise things and know which direction to go, but I could go high enough. D
26 layer of cardboard 5"x3" and layer of Perspex, I sat on, flapped my arms about and it levitated. I reduced the sizes and it still worked, reduced again to very small but it didn't work. Basically two substances, flapping of arms created (static electric / prana force) some force anyway which caused it to lift up. Somehow arm movement caused substances to charge up to be anti gravity device. (Example of rubbing a balloon which then stick to a wall.) 1
28 I was with Paul Priest (friend from secondary school) in a sports club, I told him I liked him but he preferred others. We went to shower room, I was washing, someone came said it was their shower spot so I moved to a basin finished kneeling rinsing my face. Paul had designed shoes, with success, he showed me colour catalogues (hazy brown in particular) he was planning to show some to "Emolier"- famous person who was at the sports centre playing golf. We tried to find her but her security guards kept us away. We got back to the car park, parked too near the gate, difficult for cars to get by us so we quickly reversed the car, nearly hitting others. In the dream, I tried to jot down the dream whilst I was in the car. D
29 Small boxes in room used to store things for sale. Many people, ticket system. When a noise (racket sound) occurs must stop work and be silent or a forfeit. I was caught out twice, first time didn't realise I should stop working, second tried to warn someone else when the noise went off. My first box was high up in left hand corner of room, however someone offered me £2.00 to swap with their less popular position down at the front. Every one had only £3 of stock so £2 seemed a good price. Soon afterwards the premises changed and the new position I had turned out to be a better one. Whilst at the old place someone was a priest and ministered to me, my lower half, legs and listen to me and gave advice. D
29 In a class at college, copying things from the board, pen wasn't working well, was going to be public speaking in class, but teacher saw I was copying the wrong things and criticised / humiliated me, and asked "when was the last time I took cannabis" I said over 3 weeks ago. I asked others in class if they thought the teacher was being unfair with me, they didn't agree with me. I walked out of the class, considered leaving the college all together because the course wasn't practical / too general anyway. On way out of college some bully stopped me said wait there till he got his mate, I was fearful then realised it was a dream and lost my fear carried on. From the college I had wax blocks with colour images (jigsaw puzzle) on one side (Egyptian figures), I put similar colours together to form the big picture. I tried to record this dream within the dream, using wax to write on plastic, didn't work! D
29 I went home it was the year 2056, (think home was Coley Park where I used to live), people in family were there they looked younger i.e., I realised I was seeing them as they looked in 2004. When they looked in the mirror they realised they were looking younger. Initially just family then others came in. It was me looking at them that was making them younger. Some people, 3ish, thrust money into my hands in gratitude. Was a bloke, who younger had curly black hair, a very old lady almost carried in semi conscious and then she could walk. If I was looking with them into the mirror it always happened that they became younger. D
30 Airplane I am lucid dreaming on, going into cabin going outside, Richard is due to join them. They land just outside of a factory (maybe a plane hanger) I am throwing a scarf through the engine again an again (sabotage) until it damages it and it shuts down. A fire starts just outside of factory with metal pull up gates. I float inside to warn people, this is the second time this has happened, Fire takes hold they escape, the fire goes out by itself, people escape, have a word second time will he get insurance he doesn't know. 1
30 I was flying along a woodland by a dried up stream, been there before, looking for rocks with special qualities, stream ended into open countryside, water lakes and rivers, flying wonderfully over the countryside. Came to farm, found a whole-puncher in farm yard, then came to wooden ramshackle farm building. Was with someone asked them if they could hear/ see me. Went in building, up one side about three floors. Door at far end leading to the other side of the building was locked and bolted, someone knocked from the other side, I unbolted and this short blobby ghost came up to me, knew he was slightly dangerous, he knew it and sort of warmed me, he was friendly otherwise, so I held him but wouldn't allow him too close or to put his arm round me, he said I should never scratch his back. He belonged to the building drew his energy from it. Someone entered the room, they couldn't see me or the ghost but they could feel it, I pushed the ghost at the person twice who then definitely did have a strong peculiar feeling. The ghost didn't mind, the building caught fire, we went back locked the door again, I had to escape through a high up window and floated down, just before I did someone was about to burst through the door and I rather naughtily threw the ghost at them to try and delay them. I returned after the fire to find only parts of the building left and found the blobby ghost which was now small, I apologised and we wondered what we could do as he had to stay with the building to survive. We suspected it would be demolished and replaced with a shopping centre, Tesco. So I considered taking him away in a box or jar from the building, he would shrivel up to the size of a pea but upon returning him, when the development had been completed, because the centre would be bigger he would grow again and even may be able to breed. 5
31 Group of English soldiers posted in an Indian town to secure a bridge, the locals rebelled, English retreated to a concrete bunker, one of the locals threw in explosives killing most people. They were buried near by in the pebble shingle that surrounded the bunker. Years later archaeologists came, found these bodies and started to collect together the bits of the story helped by the local people, there was no animosity. An elderly archaeologist was collecting together fragments of skull, which placed together matched and made a very smooth surface. Some pieces of skull large some very small. She was collecting little bits off of my chest, I couldn't move, and was getting frustrated towards the end of the day as there was many pieces to collect, but she was making a good job of reassembling the skull. The archaeologists also collected some rare artefacts whilst they were looking through pebbles. D
31 Philip (my brother) had an old battered toy tank he thought it might be valuable; I thought it was worthless. I took it to a collector who lived locally (Downshire Sq.) who was very interested and thought that in America it would be valuable. The collector was involved in a tank history club and was preparing a catalogue, he was very busy, it was hard to gain funding for his interest group because it was of a political nature. Looking through his catalogue we saw this tank. Examining the tank in detail we took it to bits finding bits which were parts of a plastic skeleton; he said these were decoys designed to float on water to attract enemies attention. We found miniature trees inside folded over in half a bit tatty and about 20 little invoices which were unrelated to the tank although we were hoping they would be, the invoices related to a period from 1986. We looked for the makers name on it but could find mostly family names scratched in the paintwork. D
  APRIL 2004
1 A tramp was carrying an unwell cat belonging to his family, he took the cat to a vet because he was unable to care for it. The tramp saw the whole family was coming to collect the cat but it was all very sad because the cat had to be given up. The family gave him £10 to help with the cat expenses but he gave this to the vet. Then for lots of time I was crying and crying because the tramp was alone. I thought about recording this dream onto tape but in the dream I was laid on my front on Tony's bed pretending to be asleep didn't want to record until Tony was gone, he was getting dressed, reaching over getting his socks and putting cream on his hands. 1
1 In a pub explaining to someone that at my room window there were lots of football picture and photos. He told me that in one picture of a winners cup the team names were wrong. I offered the picture to my housemate to go in his room and he was pleased. I had to be careful not to offend the owner of the room by saying I didn't want all this football stuff. At the pub I saw an ashtray with a pile of £10 / £20 pound notes folded, I prodded the pile and the man sat there offered my £30 in exchange for £10, I then realised that these were counterfeit money and I didn't proceed with the transaction. I was given something in a small box which I took away to a fare. D
1 Going round this fairground, there were brick-a-brack, cake stalls, a stall with fragile garden ornaments. I knocked into hanging ornaments causing them to swing nearly braking to the frustration of the stall holder, I explained I would pay for any breakages. I then drifted to a book stall, saw a book about speaking, offered 10p, someone, buying a book offered 30p so I offered 40p for the speaking book and then went up to a £1. D
1 Talking with a friendly* tall, slim, attractive prisoner, out temporary on release with prison officers, returning to serve a three years sentence. I said I would write to him and left, overheard officers say, "he won't write back", so I went back to talk more, explaining that I had a diploma from Reading University and I would try to help. He immediately said we were going to be good friends*. I took this 'telephone thing' so we could talk from a distance. He said that in the morning he was a different person. I asked him to tell me more about who he was now, but thought he was the same person just a difference in behaviour - split personality. I said we could write and talk and in three years he would be a different person. This was happening in Liverpool, I was thinking there are many people there who need counselling type of help and I was considering moving there. D
1 I was on the set of Eastenders discussing VAT and accounts with Sharon, she could reclaim more if she gave me all her receipts. I walked in the Queen Vic pub confidently saying hello to Pat and other cast members. Outside, in a wheelchair, a looked for the fish and chip shop, it was where my Nan used to live, Basingstoke Road, I walked up and down looking for the chip shop, looked into my Nan's old house thought I could live there but I could see inside a large man and women unknown to me. I went back to the Queen Vic as I was hungry, asked if there were non meat dishes, but it was all meat. At one point I started to talk with Dennis, Sharon's boyfriend, I was going to ask how much she had given him so she could reclaim VAT. D
2 Mark (dj) was showing me his home, originally two buildings with a porch way between where the drains were. He had combined them, the drains were still visible and draining water was running in and soaking the floor insulation material. He had a surveyor coming looking at the windows. I floated down seeing the kidney shaped swimming pool and gardens, floated up to where the roof wasn't finished. There was a small back bedroom and in places the floorboards were up.
2 At a works do, showed them about floating on a chair, a newcomer was able to do it as well. Asked others, "why can't they do this?" We had a play tussle, in the process a water main burst, the manager was upset, I was reprimanded, as a result people became ill and one person was missing, they had got wet, drained of energy and needed healing. We got the group together and I told the manager we needed some healing object, he knew what these were and got them, surprised the group. Were magicians who didn't like the look of overly-educated people. I was emotional, had problems coming down to earth, they pulled my feet to touch the ground and then I was ok. Another person had a go at floating with me, he broke one of the decorations, I didn't want to get blamed so said "get me down quick". why
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2 I visited where Nan used to live and surprisingly Jane was there. The place had been modernised, new back bathroom where the previous tenant had a seat to sit and read. I took one of Grantley's small dogs with me. The main room was panelled, I sat and waited, Jane said she was more confident around men and at one time I was so pleased to see her I cried, she licked the tear off of my cheek. Into the main room, the dogs were playing about, one of Jane's friends was the sultry maid. The maid fed the dogs, I checked my dog in the kitchen and noticed a pet lion, it came to me biting something worm like coming from me, coming out of my mouth/nose area which he ate. Then he pulled and loosened a worm tied round my toe, I finished pulling it, seemed to be coming out of my skin but actually it was a piece of string. I felt better for it leaving my body, my toe was freer. They said he often does this as he had a real sense of smell for it. Jane said in a nice way about men, "all you do is buy them a pair of jeans or a pack of crayons and they are like putty in your hands." Her boss, she was a secretary, was about to sell the house.  After the dream I awoke, my toe, the third one on the left, felt distinctly different, more flexible- how odd!
3 Star trek enterprise was boarded by aliens who disabled our weapons and ran off round the ship, broke out new weapons. I was the security officer and chased them, hit a few with my laser light but it was having no effect, hit one alien on the neck, got closer and closer still firing with effect. We ran from them as their guns were working, conscious of civilians on the ship. We captured two intruders, took them to the hold, but they over powered us, we ended up in a dark corner where there was a wash basin, a few people came by who said they were particularly searching for an insurgent called Wellington their security number was 3473. The collar of the guy holding us it had that name it. I called after the person searching but he had already gone. We sat waiting, the basin started to overflow and Wellington's partner said it was a reoccurrence of what happened before - a flood.
3 With a friend I went to the Cabin in Coronation Street and met* someone who worked there. We went out for a meal, looked at the local Indian restaurant, expensive but they could afford it no problem. We entered, they were busy so we looked for the menu. I thought, 'never mind the price, I'll have a vegetarian curry and compare the taste to what I have had before.' The waiting area was a big field, two people crossed the field, pulled a curtain, behind was a Moroccan setting up a table of football supporter goods, he started to play pleasant sounding drums . We glimpsed the seating area which looked atmospheric and busy. The Moroccan beckoned me to look at his goods, I closed my eyes meandering over to him, when I opened them I was a bit farther away. I started off to the top of the field to join my to friends, came to a muddy patch, a puddle of water 1/4 inch deep and grassy area. I heard scratching noises, lay down to ground level and saw two cute baby smooth newts, I wanted to capture them and bring home to my pond, but there was no way to capture them and they looked so happy. They scrabbled into the muddy water area, they were hardly visible, a little boy ran past stepping in the water. New people came into the waiting area.
4 I was visiting Rome, but found myself in a Prison compound, I couldn't remember why or how I had come to be imprisoned. We were all lined up, and told we were there to be helped and there was no means of escape. After the pep-talk we had to run to the other end of a field, in the middle was a substantial dip, leading to a deep tunnel, I assumed it was a mine. As we ran past I heard shouts which I assumed to be men being punished. The other side hand cuffs and chains were put loosely on us, because of health and safety, we entered one by one into a large room. Those not holding their handcuffs properly were ridiculed by prisoners already in the room, I was holding mine correctly. I had very short shorts on, I was self-conscious but no one commented, went to the far side of the room and sat on a round stool.
4 British military planes were being attacked all over the world, in fact there were only about two left and the air space around Brittan for civilian aircraft had to be protected in case of attack.
5 Two young people aged about 8 were smoking cannabis in school, they found a way through the bathroom wall and through another wall to another land. Initially I was on a bed with them both, one tried to play, but I wasn't having any of it. One crept out and slept under a bush, the other went off walking, he found a knife, I was very concerned that he didn't drop it, but he didn't. A crow came along carrying a spoon. I began to play with the boy, throwing bits of metal at him in the hope he would drop the dangerous knife, the bird got involved and tried to collect all the bits of metal. Then some horrible insects came around, great big grasshoppers, and they were trying to get the boy's knife, maybe even the boy himself, I strongly shoed them off, but the birds flew off when in fact they normally eat grasshoppers. I noticed generally how many poisonous insects there was around and shoed them off.
5 Planning to go to town on a bus, I had taken a second lot of herbal tablets, I had in my pocket 4 small church hymn books and 3 library books, I forgot the forth one. The bus was busy, had to leave using the front doors, there were two pregnant people getting off in front of me. I met some people, sort of confused, they got off the stop before, I collected my stuff the books there was a newspaper. Got to town, just before the last stop saw a fare ground and some people, the girl said there is going to be fun in town "tonight". Got off, heading to library but found a stall in middle of Broad street which seemed to be a mobile library, queued to give my books in, someone was in front taking time, so I ran to the library to get there in time. 1
6 I was in someone's home, a party up north maybe Liverpool, lots of new people plus Orly and Pam. I had very little alcohol, being myself not saying much, reasonably friendly. Then we moved on to a pub, sitting in the left hand bar area having a little more drink, beginning to talk to people more, I thought I was quite popular. The others went to look for something round the right hand bar area. At one stage people were looking at the pictures on the walls of council buildings where they lived and I thought there ought to be one of where I lived in Coley Park flats. I went to find Orly and Pam, there was a comedy act setting up their side (two big women reading funny poetry), I saw Orly and others sat so fine, I stood not wanting to squeeze in, listening to the comedy act. But the comedy act decided they couldn't be seen that side and moved round, I followed them sat at the bar with some others assuming Orly and the gang would follow to listen. The act started, someone at the bar read a little but it wasn't working and they abandoned the performance, packed up and left. It was poring with rain when she left. Three of us sat at the bar and more strangers came along, mostly men it was getting to be evening time. At first people were saying how well I looked but they were getting drunk and soon I was feeling uncomfortable people getting pushy, one guy in particular*, fortunately the barman rescued me and led me to the other side. I couldn't see Orly or our group at first, I stood around the dance floor area, more strangers arrived, women, they seemed to be finding me interesting, bumping into me being friendly flirtatious, I was smiling and talking but pulling away. Then I realised that they were sticking pins in my back and if I had sat down I would had been hurt, and someone had embarrassingly undone my flies. I realised the dance floor group had been making a fool of me, I did up flies removed pins and seriously looked for Orly as a means of escape where I would be comfortable, when I did find them they were laughing at me too, which I couldn't understand. Towards the end of the evening I was asking why? They seemed to understand more than I did why, some of them were getting frustrated because I couldn't see why, some were a bit concerned, the frustrated ones drifted off. Some stayed are were still goading me and attached some electric things to my back, I realised and got very annoyed, stood up tried to undo them, couldn't so took my shirt off to detach them. I lost my temper a little, why would they do this, seemed to be Pam that was doing this. I deliberately knocked over a few things in frustration, some glassed smashed, the bar manager came round, I immediately calmed down tried to make it look as if it was an accident, I didn't want to be thrown out. I started to pick up the glass, some how glass got into my mouth, my lips were encrusted with it and tongue. Five minutes later two ambulance men came, my lips and tongue was swollen, they waited I thought they were going to take me to hospital, but I was removing the glass by hand quite successfully. I sat down, couldn't speak much, I repeatedly asked why they were doing this to me. Eventually they said, I wasn't being myself, wasn't being me, they were saying "you should be you, you should be you". I was repeating this, they said no, you should say "be me", I repeated this several times which seemed not only what they wanted me to say but relaxed me as well. I picked at my lips, thinking that oh they would be nicely fuller again after removing the glass. The Paramedics were pleased the glass was coming out naturally. The dream ended with me saying/thinking "BE ME, BE ME, BE ME."

THOUGHTS ON THE ABOVE: I could apply to a therapy situation, for example, I would ask myself - what are the things stopping you from being yourself, in my case it would be; expressing myself, enjoying company and relaxing. And I would say that's because my dad was horrible to me, so in the therapy I would stick a pin in the back of a teddy bear, ah mum wasn't affectionate enough, so stick another pin in, I was teased, etc, etc, stick more pins in. I would re-examine at each of these pins, to see if any were unfounded, for example I might remember some good times with dad, the letters mum sent whilst I was away that time with school this re-examination might lead me to feel compelled to take the pin out after all. Maybe symbolically, psychically, in a focused way, putting in and removing pins is helpful: Developing this further; My flies were undone- In front of Teddy I pin in things that I don't like about "me"; I'm not sociable, comfortable in groups, don't talk much, I am shy, lack will power, desire* too much. The reason for all this, the behind reasons I pin in the back of Teddy; i.e., ,
Another element might be don't put things in your mouth, firstly alcohol. When I went round to the other side the second time I was obviously semi-drunk, talking to people freely, making me unaware of what was happening. Does the glass symbolise herbal remedies that I shouldn't consume as they stop me from being me.
6 Follow up dream: In America at a whale park, floating on a raft face down nervously / frighteningly anticipating the whale coming up in front of me and looking into his eyes. As I waited, a duck came along, I became aware of a gentle nibbling on my hand and then the frightening realisation that this was the whales teeth gently playing with my hand. He no way was hurting me, but I got out quick anyway, I was expecting him to swim up and jump, I saw the water bubbling up as if he was swimming up, it seemed to be taking ages, it was going to be a monster splash, so I took my shirt of. He actually used his tail to cause the splash, as he did I stretched my arms out to enjoy the unusual experience. This happened twice, the second time a huge cheer came from people on a leisure boat passing by. I went to get my clothes which had been taken by the warden there, he walked off directing me to a door on the left, they were hung up, started to dry off, I realised my shorts were absolutely wet through, there was a hand towel that I could used to dry them before I put my trousers back on. I went in the waiting / reception area, there were three friendly secretaries there, one was on the phone another opposite, I discreetly looked down to try and read the writing on computer disks behind the reception desk, from the phone conversation I realised they were at the pub the other night even some of those picking on me. I asked them why did they do this, they said I had got too drunk, I was talking foolishly with them, I wasn't coming on to them but they said I was too full of myself. Someone at the pub had asked what's my major purpose in life, I had replied, "Me" instead of others which had put peoples backs up. A male manager came in and asked them questions, then another guy drifted in asking about one's purpose, these men were friendly*. Apparently with the second guy I had tried to befriend the other night, I was so sorry. Then someone from behind played with my chest, I said don't do that you have a partner. It turned out to be some other interesting looking, caring eyes, muscled man wearing blue shorts, I was embarrassed. I asked them a few times, "what should I do, how can I be more talkative?" They asked me why wasn't I confident, I said, because I wasn't successful well I am in some ways but generally not. I wanted to look the duck and whale in the eyes, but terrified about doing it. Maybe the whale nibbling my hand was his way of connecting with me, doesn't have to be my way. I have a fear of dark fish lurking in the depths, maybe this represents dark things lurking in the subconsciousness that can come up and bite you, I am thinking they are going to come up and bite me terribly whereas in fact they might just nibble me to let me know they are there still in the deep and not going to hurt me, have there own way of effecting me, in the whale case to get me absolutely wet.

Analysis: I want to reach out to people: In the first dream I only wanted to reach out to Orly when I was feeling very vulnerable, yet she was a friend. Do I only reach out to people when vulnerable? which isn't right I only speak when someone is vulnerable. With the whale I wanted to connect with him in my own way, to look at him eye to eye. Maybe I should want or try to reach out, but rather, metaphorically speaking, shine and then people will look towards me, just as when I was talkative at the pub and tipsy, I was looking good, lots of people said so, happy looking, then people would approach and start talking. So perhaps be me and then people will look at me, which is what I want, I want to connect with them. But maybe I shouldn't be reaching out and grabbing them, but be shinning.
7 To travel from point A to B: You take some mind altering tablets, see a light filled cavern/void, you on one side and the place you wanted represented somewhere on the other side, you jumped in & floated across the cavern to that spot and when you came out of that altered state/awoke you were in the actual place you wanted. I used this technique on a small scale to move from one end of Northumberland Avenue to another. I spoke to a family, two adults one child who were planning to move from England to America and suggested this new technique. An evil entity (evil father Christmas) was hanging round the family's house trying to spoil things, he was able to control their dog by suggestion making it turn into a nasty animal, I was able to control the dog to behave better but not completely normal. They were packing for America, I had suggested the new travelling technique but evil Father Christmas didn't like to lose them. They gathered their belongings took the tablets and jumped into the void area. Father Christmas threatened to follow, I reassured them, he hadn't had the tablet so would fall into the void and not be able to reach the other side. They reached the other side, got in their new home but realised they had left some things behind. I told them it was possible to go back, we realised the Father Christmas might have his own powers to travel this way and that they must hurry. The girl decided she would not return again and risk delaying, they did return and collected the rest of their belongings. They returned home and shut the door, but Father Christmas was banging at the door to get in, they locked and bolted the door. As I was going back across the void there was a group of people intending to do the same thing, but I said no you can't because you haven't got the right tablets, one person did make the journey as she had a tablet that I had given her secretly. Whilst in America I was floating by the family who were cheering, I was pleased because this was my doing / I had done good work, I was speaking in the accent of an African man. I floated over a solitary man who called out to me, "why had they and their family had such a tough time?" I was about the explain, by asking whether he understood about Karma, that's why they didn't have any presents and life was hard, but I didn't get to explain as the dream ended. This dream, a concept of quick travelling by crossing a void I have had before, drinking potion dream to make you more spiritually aware.
7 In a workhouse, putting clay into rough moulds someone else to remove from the mould, I was a beginner. Mostly boys where I worked. I and a small group were told to bury someone outside near a spring in a snowy field where there was a muddy patch of ground, we knew the deceased had asked not to be buried there, instead we started to bury his remains in one a building roof, we almost got caught so couldn't finish. There was a demonstration of food and sweets we were allowed to go to, it was in building 14 of the workhouse, a sowing room with mostly girls and a conveyor belt in the middle, first time I had been here, we were given a free sandwich sample to eat but it was still partly frozen, there were lots of chocolates and cakes on the conveyor belt but we could not touch these. Something had happened that day, something big and worrying, I was asking people what, but it was too secret for them to tell me. I moved to the end of the conveyor belt where there was someone sat who was going to tell me but I never did find out. I wondered how I had come to be here, my mum had taken me there, she had remarried and had two kids from the second husband who I didn't get on with.
  AUGUST 2004
21 On my way to a spiritual training group held at a large house (may be Stanstead Hall, the college and HQ of Spiritualism). Arrived late, joined the first class I could find, 8 other students seated, tutor was Libby Clark, lesson was about astral projection. I realised it the wrong class but as it was an interesting subject I stayed. The tutor said sit still in our chairs and relax the body, imagine the blood and warmth flow into our toes and up the body, she spoke of the energies in the body, she said that an uncomfortable feeling in the bladder could be linked to difficulties in expressing emotions. I realised that my bladder was tense, as if I needed to use the loo, (both my physical body bladder and dream body bladder was tense). I relaxed the bladder which reduced some emotion tension and this lead to energy flowing up further into my body. I began to feel a separation feeling, my dream body was sat on the chair in the class room and I could feel something separating. I wasn't sure if I was supposed to separate, however I could see a couple of other students doing it so I decided to float up into the classroom. Whilst floating and waiting for the other students to join us, a man entered the classroom, I thought it would disturb us all and jolt me back but I remained calm and this didn't happen. The tutor was still talking, don't know if she was aware that we were out-of-the body and floating. I temporarily left the class room by easily passing through a window. I tried to touch the hand of another student, however she pulled away defensively. I decided to rejoin my body, sit back in the chair, thinking I should relax even more and listen to Libby's instructions, maybe I floated out too soon and there was more I could experience if I didn't mess around by floating around. 8
25 A reoccurring dream: Working for Thames Water as an auditor (I actually worked there for 7 years, left in 1992) I was put to work in a small room, just me and my computer. But I had to empty all my belongings from my office desk, there were all sortS of things, coats, cd player, books, the things you normally only keep at home. D
25 The fire place in my room was being removed, (I actually did this in my flat 2 years ago) but this dream fireplace was bigger with more parts to it, one part after another had to be taken out. D
25 A group of people had contracted some virus and were suffering, I used my mind and imagined a white mass of antibodies engulfing the group of people to attack the virus. D
26 I was in a field and noticed two teenager boys playing below me in a dip in the ground. I was higher up than they were, (I have noticed that in dreams that if I am high up it seems to remind me that I am in the dream state and remind me I can fly) So I flew along the dip in the ground, there were loads of school children using this place as a play area during break times. Break time ended, they all filed through gates at the far end into school. I went into the school and explored a bit, classrooms all seemed to be empty. (I woke up partially, happy to have been lucid dreaming and tried again) 6
26 I was floating in and around my garden, floated from a shady bit into the sunshine and this gave me energy. Decided to take a closer look at my pond but found myself indoors again. Tried to pass through the window, this proved difficult, I rested a while and tried again successfully. 7
26 On the playing field of my primary school, floating about. I realised my aim was astral projection proper not just lucid dreams, so in the dream I decided to meditate. Found a quiet spot on the sports field by the exit gates and lay down trying to relax. It was about 7pm so I wasn't expecting to be disturbed, however some teachers left late and the cleaners arrived and were talking by the gates so my relaxation was disturbed. I remember thinking that the evening sunlight was from the wrong direction. 5
27 Shopping with someone in the USA. The shop was giving discount hotel vouchers to overseas shoppers, in various currencies, giving the equivalent of a few dollars off. We needed accommodation, took a voucher to a small old fashioned hotel. We were in a small room high up, having to share a bed and with two other guests sleeping on the floor next to the bed, a young man and an older man. In the morning the older guy was pulling at the sheets which annoyed me and I told him so. I went for breakfast but could not find our room afterwards, came across the old guy again, I apologised for snapping at him and asked if he would direct me to the room. He explained, I should go into a room where there was a hidden staircase to the "Australian" part of the hotel. D
28 In a tent, a fox was nervously creeping around, I kept still it came closer licked my ear and sat in the far corner of my tent. Two children came along, I said ok for them to gently stroke the fox but they were clumsy and loud frightening the fox, so I told them off, they went away and the fox settled back down. I had to leave, was worried that passers by would disturb it. D
28 On the back of a lorry transporting a fully grown tree in America. We were working supporting a tour of an American presidential candidate. We came to a hill leading to a Hispanic town, the lorry had to make a detour, me and two candidate helpers went on foot through the town, had to pass through someone's house which was overcrowded with many people's sleeping covers on the floor. I said we ought to advise the candidate to stop giving speeches about objects and possession to impress people, instead advise him to speak of how America has used its military might unwisely, it was no longer good to be an American as people around the world had lost respect. D
28 An indoor salt water pool, in the filter part was a trapped small (size of a bag of sugar) baby whale. Two seagulls were attacking it feeding on its blubber, I chased them away in time. I told the maintenance main, he put the whale in the pool and set the automatic flush and clean program, during cleaning the water had become very hot, at the end of the cleaning the baby whale was all pink and dead. I was very upset. D
29 Returning home, the garden was littered with fallen tree branches as if there had been a storm. (the previous day I had pruned some trees in the garden) A neighbours' door was open, I floated in, along the corridor was a stocky man, I mentioned the mess in the garden and asked him if there had been a storm. He looked at the garden surprised. He had a boy about 8 years old in his arms. The boy spoke a lot to me, he playfully hit me to warn me not to mess with him, he knew about the mechanics of astral travel, for a while we travelled together around the garden. I floated mostly carrying him, we tried it with him doing the lifting which didn't work well. Looked at my hands and feet they appeared as they do in real life. I pulled my finger to see if it would stretch but it didn't. I drifted around the garden and near by street, could see the colours of the leaves, the bright blue sky and cloud formations. Drifting front ways, knocking into things, thought I should be able to pass through them, so I tried floating backwards which seemed easier except when I knew I was coming up to the garden wall by the pond. Over the wall an old mattress and debris soaked in the overflow from the pond. I pulled these away from the pond, water oozed out of them. Realised there had been a lot of rain, was a ditch/ stream formed on the lawn I hoped that this would be permanent. I floated over surface of the pond, decided to use fingers, it was frozen, I could feel the hardness but not the coldness. I said "hello" to passers bye, one distinctive lady blushed and replied back, she wore glasses, pointed face, posh looking, I had the feeling I would be meeting her again in real life. I wanted to float up vertically as high as possible, I saw an air balloon in sky, but I was only able to rise up 30ft or so, realised my feet, legs and back were tensing in an effort to keep upright, I relaxed them giving me a little energy still remaining upright. Towards the end I was floating in Brunswick Street, three Asian people came along, I said hello three times, had feeling they heard but didn't want to reply. 8
30 Drifting around a shopping centre, long walkways, went into an old fashioned shop selling gifts. I was responsible for the second hand jewellery and old chocolates department. It was Christmas time but the shelves in my department were empty, I considered offering space in my department to others, but rearranged my stock instead which did increase sales. D
30 Drifting around an engineering works, lots of metal working, was having difficulty floating in right direction, on my way in I accidentally bumped into the gate man. Windows were small, I practiced floated in and out. D
30 I was invited into someone's flat, their wife and children were away, I had lost my keys (had lost my keys that day.) There was a climbing houseplant belonging to his dysfunctional daughter, two parts of the plant had been given her by two previous boyfriends. I left, on my way home passed two terraced houses, one was very untidy, damp, in a dangerous state of disrepair, the front had collapsed. The other house caught fire, I helped with rescue some possessions and search through the debris, found the two missing people safe hidden under a soaked carpet. My keys were found, his wife had used them to visit a neighbour and she had forgot.
30 In a maternity hospital, passed by a baby who had one central blue eye only, but upon looking again his eyes were ok but so penetrating, calm, peaceful it had the effect of mesmerising me. His mum explained that he had that effect on everyone. I thought he looked out at the world without analysing, just looking and that is how I should practice looking. Passed on to look at the next, brown eyed, baby. D
  SEPTEMBER 2004
1 Staying with a large family, mum dad and 5 sons (between 16 and 24), 2 girls. They were going out for the evening but I wanted to stay home thinking one or two of them would stay and play. D
4 Run down holiday resort Eastern Europe, district with graffiti and groups of rough looking men sitting at cafe bars. Heard angry sounding men coming towards me, it was a shouting priest with three followers, some of the men at the bars made anti-religion comments, police came and over-reacted, started arresting many people. I fled, not knowing where I was going, found myself right by the police station as police with battens and horses were rushing out towards me hitting everyone in sight. In a side street I considered hiding in shadows of round rubbish skips, felt sure they would see me so floated up high over the street wall over the gardens of the houses. Went higher, gardens and houses in state disrepair. Travelling at high speed was afraid of hitting telephone wires, then realised that didn't matter as I would go through them. Kept floating and found myself in a familiar street, back in Reading just off the Oxford Road, went to have a look along Oxford Road and recognised some of the buildings. I travelled along specifically looking for familiar buildings, cars were in street, I thought they might hit me as I floated, again realised that didn't matter, I deliberately tried to pass through a white camper van, felt odd but ok. 5
4 At Stanstead Hall as they prepared for an organ recital. I ask the organist "had they thought about recording the performance?" He considered it a good idea and was about to use a cassette recorder, I suggested mini-disc. People in various adjacent rooms preparing, I knocked over a pile of napkins that had been used for an Indian art workshop, some people got irritated by me being in the way as I picked them up. I went down a long corridor, through a door on right into a secondary reception area where there was a woman standing at an ice cream freezer. Most other people were in the dining room, talking about the previous evening, some had gone to the bar and had a brandy others had stayed in class and learned something. 4
5 A Sunday Spiritualist church service where there was disquiet and agro at the beginning, in fact church was in uproar. The medium took out the huge piece of pink crystal and hit it with something metal making it tingling sound but everyone there could feel something strange every time the crystal was hit. It was wonderful proof the crystals had psychic potential. 1
5 Met a group of people sat around a tree they were talking about herbs and a new type of tobacco that gave an astral travel effect. Was it legal I asked, they went and bought a large lump of it, I don't smoke but they said chewing it would work just the same. Barry was up a tree and I was thinking about a lost passport. 2
5 Richard Janko had moved into my front room helped by Michael who had moved into the middle room. Initially I was ok about this then I realised the middle room was rented out to Francesca, I went in there and she was very upset packing her things. I was sorry, I hadn't known Richard and a friend was moving in. Richard was already planning a party, seven guests had arrived, his friend seemed a reasonable person so I said as long as he stayed Richard could stay. D
5 There was a picnic cloth set out in the road, 2 boys fell over, we placed our hand on their knee to heal them. But their fathers were angry, I told the fathers to ask the boys what happened, how they got the bruised faces. I was worried that I had killed a boy and tried to sneak some of his belongings back, three sisters were supportive, one was domineering and I said so. However the boy returned home with a guilty look on his face. D
6 I organised an astral projection workshop to take place outdoors, there were 5/6 people in the workshop we had a "freaky" time, after two people tried to dominate and tell the others what to think. I was planning a second workshop, three black women came along, I knew one of them could definitely do it. (Woke a little, did some hand and feet relaxation) 2
6 In my room, jumped up and stayed up in air. Heard Colin talking to Mike in Mike's room, hoped he would come into my room before I went to work in 15 minutes or so. However I went into Mike's room and watched them, looking closer at them, Colin was really Stevie's friend, and Mike was this guy from the pub. I joined in with them but soon they disappeared! Tried to float out the front door, too difficult, in frustration I accidentally burst into Emmanuel's room, it was dark he was asleep, hoped I didn't wake him. Someone came up pathway, short person, curly brown hair, caring looking, I invited him in thinking he was either coming for counselling or to counsel me. Came in, said nothing, held out his hand, it was very cold, I held both his hands to warm them and as he was so cold hugged him to warm him up. I was breathing deeply, his breathing was shallow but improving. Then thought I was awake, started writing down the dream onto an electric multiple socket until no room then onto pink paper. Realised was not really awake. 1
6 Met Peter Rackley (someone I knew at school). He was now 6'2", fuller build but solid body. He sat down discussed school and asked if he could tell me something. He told me something personal that was still applicable today, I told him the same. We carried on talking, sitting closer. D
9 Walking down by Caversham river, builders were constructing a second block of hexagonal modular flats. The interior of all rooms were hexagonal, with all glass walls some sloping and the furniture designed to fit around this type of construction. The car parks had marble floor and long drive ways. D
9 I was working in the desert, incognito. Steven Lusher found me. D
  My 2004 dream diary entries stopped in September as I became involved in my local Spiritualist church and all work on the web site stopped.
2005
1 Jun		 Lucid dream, able to see very well, bright colours of landscape and a town. Saw a church on a hill in the town, thought I would go there, but as I climbed the stone steps up to it they began to shake and my journey became difficult and exhausting. Too tired to continue, thought I would have to wake up, but 'another me,' came to my rescue, took my hand lifted me up and embraced me which seemed to give me more energy. I then contented myself with browsing through a shopping arcade.
(?- church represents wanting beautiful spiritual progress, saw it and wanted to go there but I went too soon, felt my tired self was astral but the other me was my spiritual self.)		 3
 
 

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